Two in a day
Two in a day huh? Must be inspired. I am not sad, for the first time in maybe months I am happy just because I am. For so long I had bee faking my smile, passing day by day, just surviving, looking forward to dumb things in order to keep going. Attaching myself to people or situations in order to motivate me. I had lost something so precious to me that I couldn't see another way. I found myself wanting to undo what had been done but knowing that it was for the better. Keeping the memories close, hurting, why? Because I thought I could handle it. I couldn't, but now I can. Was it the time? Was it the situations? Was it me? I do not know. But now I'm happy again, I'm starting to be me again. It still hurts sometimes, but it is not an existential pain, a pain that goes deep into your soul and mind that makes you question the decisions that you've made. It's more of a longing pain, a bittersweet memory. A nostalgic thought filled with emotions of happiness that p...