Fuck

I have one thing to think about. I gave one advice... and I can't even follow it.
Wherever I go, there you are.
I can't be by myself anymore.
What a weirdly unsatisfying yet wonderful feeling.
I do like being alone.


...I'm sorry... I lied to you...

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